I'm missing my Grandma and having to answer Cole's questions about where she is, because even though he'll tell you Grandma is in Heaven with Jesus and the angels, he still asks me everyday if we are going to see her. It's much to much for a 3 year old to process. I just keep reassuring him she's so much happier now that she's in Heaven. Or, maybe I'm just reassuring myself.
Anyways, I've been trying to focus on happy things around me. And what better to think about than my family. I have a great husband and 2 of the most amazing, beautiful children a mom could ask for. The last 2 nights during bath time, Cole has made Raleigh belly laugh, and I mean, BELLY LAUGH! She has just been so hysterical when Cole splashes in the water; not sure why it's so funny to her, but anything Cole does anymore is hilarious and fabulous to her. She loves him! I have a video of it, but of course they are in the tub and you catch a glimpse of a baby butt, so I couldn't post it. (How sad is it that I can't post it because of the crazy people in this world, not to mention that I could get in trouble myself?! So sad.) But, it has really been a "lifter-upper." I went back through my camera and found some pictures I took about a week before we moved. It was obviously game day here in Columbia! And you know we get all decked out for the games. Yes, yes, even my kids have their game day attire! So take a look below, and tell me what's not to smile about and be thankful for?
Check out the hams on my daughter! Too cute!
So, I'm thankful for my Grandma's life, and I'm thankful for my children's lives. Even though she's not here anymore, she can still live on in my heart. And, indeed, she will.
On a side note, I like to ask for everyone to pray for my other grandmother. She was admitted to the hospital last Thursday and is still there. She's really sick; they've diagnosed her with a lung disease that will have her on oxygen for the rest of her life. Still in the process of figuring out why she is so sick right now. I'll keep y'all posted.
I've been thinking a lot about motherhood. My dad just lost his mom; I can't even think about losing mine or Eric's mom. My mom's mom is sick.
Mom's have such an amazing impact on our lives. We look up to them; they raise us and make us who we are. And now, I have the responsibility of raising two young ones of my own. I am their mother. I often second guess myself on my decisions, judge myself, and just get down right angry with myself sometimes. I desperately desire to be the BEST mom I can possibly be. I don't want to miss a moment with their precious souls because I know if I blink, they'll be grown up with families of their own.
I hope they grow up and know how much I love them. I hope they can feel the raw emotion that I feel for them. And I hope that one day, they'll have kids of their own and are able to give them the same love that I give and will always give to them.
Here is a sweet tribute to all the mom's out there. It's a music video by Taylor Swift; a tribute to her mom. Enjoy.
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